smooth sailing.

I can honestly say that since I've become more serious about church, tithing,giving, helping others, Biblical studies and coming closer to God in general, a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and the quality of my life has improved tenfold. I no longer feel drudged down by the weight and worries of this world.

Some may have heard me say it but some may not have--this summer has been a spiritual breakthrough for me. I say this truly and sincerely. I suppose God believed that it was time for me to go to the next level in my spirituality, well I've made it there with flying colors! I can't believe how much I was missing out on concerning my relationship with Him before!

Now that I have this new relationship I pray that it doesn't dissolve, that I have the strength and faith and determination to continually walk with Him without letting the secularness of this world hold me back or cause me to second guess myself and God's love for me. Because while some people are absolutely positive there is nothing that makes them waiver in God--i've been angry with Him to the point of not even talking to Him, I've lost faith before and sometimes I've even understood the rationings of non-believers and have been struck with what I call the "What Ifs"--a period in which I question the reality of God. But I find that while the stronger I get in God the stronger the opposition gets, the easier it is for me to tackle my own doubts and insecurities and tap them down to resume my walk in, through and with Him.

I've found such a peace in my increased spirituality that I no longer get all wound up when problems come my way. I'm curbing a lot of the words coming out of my mouth and ideas coming out of my mind and I'm no longer feeling like I'm going against my own grain or what seems to be ingrained in me to the point that its simply who I am. I find that working on myself is becoming easier than ever. Its not EASY but its easier than it has ever been before for me.

I'm on my way...I am reaping the goodness of God in my life and I am bringing that goodness to and encouraging my family to find their own goodness in Him moreso than ever before. My children are developing a stronger relationship in Him as well. I can see such a marked difference in all of us in only a month, I wouldn't believe it if I wasn't experiencing it myself.

I am blessed with smooth sailing!

of things related and unrelated ~ 8/6/09

soon i'll have back a regular laptop. then i can get back to business as usual. until then, i'm still halfway lagged out because i have to try to find a laptop to use.

hubby and i are doing wonderfully, i can hardly remember what our fallout was about.

school starts in about three weeks, it's so bittersweet. it's been one of the best summers i've had in a long time with myself, the girls and God, and now it's almost over.

i'm going to see benny hinn in september, on the 17th and 18th for his Fire Conference!

organic is still best!

don't formula feed your children. formula contains toxins that destroy neurotransmitters. if i could go back, i wouldn't have ever allowed my oldest to be formula fed.

God is good (ALL the time!)!!

i want to move to south jersey as soon as possible, the more i think about it the more excited i get about it...hmm.

why...

do atheists seem to love to attack Christians (both overtly and subtly), yet they seem to be docile around believers of other religions? it just seems so one sided and lopsided.

lately i've been dealing with some atheist conversation, and although it's civil for the most part, there are alot of subtle attacks towards Christians, even when the Christians aren't attacking the atheists (not even subtly). now i could be wrong, being as i'm Christian, and biased. but i've stepped away from the conversation and went back to it, only to realize that no...we are not attacking them.

i've been to forums where there are a wide variety of religions, and in every debate, the ones who get trashed the most are the Christians. the ones who get the least respect for their beliefs are the Christians. i have to ask, is this because Christians make up a majority of the group, is it because atheists have a thing for Christians moreso than any other religion, or is it for a reason totally unrelated?

i also notice that atheists dig up more "ammo" to use against Christians than any other group. i don't see them digging around for the most minute details of other religions to use in debate. i don't see them picking apart the Koran as much as the Bible, i don't see them taking issue with Buddah as much as Jesus.

not that i am overly concerned with this, but it's just something I'VE noticed. again, i could be wrong and i make no claims to a scientific study about this.

just wondering what IS it about us Christians that rubs them so badly?

"sometimes you'll want to lick his ears and sometimes you'll want to bite them off." ~the heso

"it [isn't] classy to be unkind."~julie elizabeth leto (Up to No Good)

"give your burdens to the Lord, and He will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall." ~King David, Ps.55:22

organic, continued!

well i'm still enjoying the switch over to organic...alot. after shopping organic about 60% i realize that it's actually only about a 10% increase in price. it's most often like buying foods are either their regular price or at a sale price for certain items. here's a small list of prices compared for organic foods that I purchased at shoprite last week (the first price is the organic price the second price is the non organic price at the same store):

gala apples: 1.49lb/1.99lb

1% milk (shoprite brand): 4.99/4.29

purple seeded grapes: 1.99/1.49

kiwi fruit 4@2.00/4@1.00

pasta sauce 2.39/2.29

applesauce 1.99/1.99

tomatoes 2.39/2.19

cranberry juice 2.49/2.49

so the prices really aren't all that different, and there were actually some foods where the prices were cheaper for organic!

right now i'm reading up more on big companies and organic lies...thats an interesting read. thus far the only company i've blacklisted are kraft, morning star (we don't do soy foods anyway) and horizon milk...which allegations are their cows are cramped in pens and fed feed that has been sprayed with pesticides.

i know the list goes on but overall we can definitely see and taste the difference in organic and the girls and i love it. i'm not noticing any physical changes other than i feel much better overall, but i'm watching!